I try to force myself to fit into the square shape when I truly not a square. I still holding something tight while my heart clearly told me the thing isn't belong to me. Sometimes human beings, or perhaps just me, is stupid enough to hold on something that is clearly not belong to me and wait until hit the rock bottom to finally let go. Perhaps it's time for me to do more yoga and more meditation to find out the answer for still holding on while it is clear enough to let go.
It is funny when I realize there are times I kept persuading myself the reasons to hold on and don't give up easily. Letting go is not an easy job as it looks and really need some wisdom. Clear enough, I do not have that, YET. I pray to God, whoever above me with the super power, to let me be able to gain the wisdom ASAP in my life. I believe by then, I will be able to open my arms and receive the beauty of the universe that full of choices, again.