初来到美国的时候，真的有点不习惯。马来西亚特别的地方就是365天，天天都是夏天。家乡的气候四季如夏，一件背心一条短裤就可以出门了。在这里可不一样！
记得在2006年11月27日大概中午时分，我抵达纽约。在那里，虽然艳阳高照，却是冷得要命。穿上一层层的衣服，厚厚的冬装，当寒风吹来时还是忍不住打颤。走出JFK机场，已经是下午3点30分，天却已经灰暗。后来到新泽西，那里的气候和纽约是差不了多少。我记得我在新泽西的日子，吃了就睡，睡了就吃；吃了再睡，不然就是上网，追连续剧……哇，现在想起来都还是一阵心惊！这么年轻就过着这么颓废的日子。这样冬眠的日子，使得我当时的体重高达118磅，而且是无论如何也瘦不下来，并持续增长，好吓人！当后来的体重是104时，我回想当时肥胖的身子，真想昏倒！
辗转一年多以前来到加州，虽然没有纽约一带如此寒冷的天气，可是晚上的温度也在华氏40度上下（差不多接近摄氏0度）。就因为想着在这里没有东北一带那么冷，所以到今天为止我都没为自己预备厚厚的外套，导致每天晚上出门时都冷得发抖。
春、夏、秋、冬，这四个季节都有不同的喜爱者。在我还没有真正体验过四季时，我“以为”我最喜欢的季节会是秋天，甚至是冬天。我说以为，因为我身在马来西亚，对于四季，只能借助电影、照片，或是文字的描绘，去憧憬、去想象。也或许当时的我正处于青春期多愁善感的阶段，所以当时的喜好也比较有所不同。
当时的我认为我会喜欢冬天，是因为我喜欢那种自然界的雪，铺天盖地的落下来，使得大地万物都被遮盖住。映入眼帘的，只是白茫茫一片。天地之间好静好静，静得可以让我忘了繁华的尘世，静静地享受与自然界静心交流的时刻。我觉得我会喜欢秋天，因为很多秋季的照片都拍得好美好美。在我的世界里，植物的颜色似乎只有青绿色，或枯死后的褐色，甚至黑色。可是秋天却像个浪漫的艺术家，能神奇地使这唯一颜色，变成了红色、黄色等等的美妙色彩。我认为秋天是浪漫的，好像很多唯美的爱情故事都会在这个季节发生。
后来我发现，原来我最喜欢的，是春天。春天的美好真的深深感动了我，她没有夏天的炎热，不似秋天的萧条，更没有冬天的严寒。当天地万物都在沉睡着，她悄悄地到来，然后用她温暖的风，再次唤醒大地。你会看见在昨天还是光秃秃的树木，在今天醒来时已经盟上了满满的芽，再隔一天，却是绿叶映然了。原本毫无生气的大地，也在一夜之间冒出色彩缤纷的小花儿。你会听见鸟叫声，还有各种属于自然界独特的声音。就在那一霎那，我发现春天像是生命的赐予者，她的到来，让这沉睡的万物再次醒过来，处处都是生机。春天，象征着年轻的生命，一切才正要开始呢！而这四个季节的体验，我在东北一带时才真正经历，比如新泽西、纽约、华盛顿DC等。由于加州的气候一年四季温差不会太大，所以体会反而不深。当然，我还是喜欢其他的三个季节，只是不如春天所能带给我的震撼和惊喜。在任何一个拥有四季的地带，你会更惊叹自然界的伟大以及人类的渺小；你会更震慑自然界的美丽以及人类的庸俗；你会期待自然界带给你的惊喜，却也同时害怕人类的力量无法阻挡霎时之间的强大能量。
看来寒冷的冬天真的要过去了，天气渐渐温暖起来。今天的天气真好，吃过了早餐就到HUNTINGTON海边骑脚踏车。好久都不曾这样了，以懒惰出名的我终于选择在这个好天气的周末对自己好一点，到美美的海滩去接触大自然。看来喜爱大自然的人绝不止少数，大家都选在这美丽的日子出游。海边满满的人，不过没关系，我反正不和他们争地方。戴上耳机，我就悠游自在地骑着我的铁马，边吹海风便欣赏音乐往远处骑去。渐骑渐远，后来才知道我总共骑了整整八英里！也就是接近13公里吧！对于不爱运动的我来说，还是有相当的成就感。
下星期的我，估计将会好忙。除了要应付期中考，还要加班。现在的我原本该为下星期的忙碌铺路，而不是悠哉悠闲地写BLOG！可是为了美丽的春天，在这忙里偷闲的一天悄悄留下小小的印记也应该值得吧，嘻！
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
我要让“鬼推磨”！！
全球的经济现在在急促喘着气，好怕它下一刻会随时断气哦！可能怎么办？我看着周围的人为钱烦，可还是有人依然如鱼得水般随意消费。当然，任谁都想成为后者，可多数人却属于前者。而目前仍是学生身份的我，更是无时无刻精打细算，深怕成为这次风暴的牺牲者。
前几日和妈谈电话，我们都在互相感叹着“有钱多好”。最近我都不敢去逛街了，因为每每看见心爱的物品可是却没能力拥有时，我一定在心底深深感叹：“有钱多好啊……”所以每当逛完一次，心里的“痛苦”就增加一层。然后不尽开始问自己，为什么就不干脆答应那些臭男人，让他们包养算了？
我记得刚到加州时，我的法国色老板很认真地问我要不要成为他“女朋友”。我以为他在开玩笑，岂知是认真的。然后还碰上另一个只知道叫“麦克”的男人也作出同样的“OFFER”。我没有答应，可是在物欲横流的世界里，我偶尔还是会自己开自己的玩笑：“当初答应不就好了？省得现在看到吃不到……”
我觉得我这学生的身份是时候换了，身边的朋友都开始赚进一桶桶的金，而自己还在“学海”里浮浮沉沉。真的厌倦那种省吃俭用，入不敷出的日子，好想快快跳出来开始着手创造自己的王国，不想要现在这样低着头过日子了。
可退一步想，在现在这样的环境能继续读书真的是福气。尤其看见自己身边的朋友想读书却没机会时，我就知道自己该珍惜我的福气。英语有句话说的好：“Don't take things for granted.” 在中文我似乎找不到更好的字眼替代。
我等不及了，等不及跳出来，跳出来赚钱，赚好多好多的钱！现在的我好想呐喊：“我要让鬼推磨！！！！！”
前几日和妈谈电话，我们都在互相感叹着“有钱多好”。最近我都不敢去逛街了，因为每每看见心爱的物品可是却没能力拥有时，我一定在心底深深感叹：“有钱多好啊……”所以每当逛完一次，心里的“痛苦”就增加一层。然后不尽开始问自己，为什么就不干脆答应那些臭男人，让他们包养算了？
我记得刚到加州时，我的法国色老板很认真地问我要不要成为他“女朋友”。我以为他在开玩笑，岂知是认真的。然后还碰上另一个只知道叫“麦克”的男人也作出同样的“OFFER”。我没有答应，可是在物欲横流的世界里，我偶尔还是会自己开自己的玩笑：“当初答应不就好了？省得现在看到吃不到……”
我觉得我这学生的身份是时候换了，身边的朋友都开始赚进一桶桶的金，而自己还在“学海”里浮浮沉沉。真的厌倦那种省吃俭用，入不敷出的日子，好想快快跳出来开始着手创造自己的王国，不想要现在这样低着头过日子了。
可退一步想，在现在这样的环境能继续读书真的是福气。尤其看见自己身边的朋友想读书却没机会时，我就知道自己该珍惜我的福气。英语有句话说的好：“Don't take things for granted.” 在中文我似乎找不到更好的字眼替代。
我等不及了，等不及跳出来，跳出来赚钱，赚好多好多的钱！现在的我好想呐喊：“我要让鬼推磨！！！！！”
Monday, January 19, 2009
想……
窗外，我听见飞机飞过的声音。是如此熟悉，仿佛是昨日的事。
今夜的我似乎有些感伤，我也好像只有在感伤的时候才想要写日记吧！看看我那么久没有更新我的部落格，是不是该高兴呢？证明我忙得昏天暗地，没有时间风花雪月。
自从回来以后，我就一直在生病的状态。病了还得拖着病体加班，那才有小小的可怜吧。原本以为已经找回往日的步伐，怎知今夜还是突然又想家。
我该回家了，我会回家的。
恋栈的人儿啊，有没有听见母亲呼唤的声音……
今夜的我似乎有些感伤，我也好像只有在感伤的时候才想要写日记吧！看看我那么久没有更新我的部落格，是不是该高兴呢？证明我忙得昏天暗地，没有时间风花雪月。
自从回来以后，我就一直在生病的状态。病了还得拖着病体加班，那才有小小的可怜吧。原本以为已经找回往日的步伐，怎知今夜还是突然又想家。
我该回家了，我会回家的。
恋栈的人儿啊，有没有听见母亲呼唤的声音……
Sunday, January 4, 2009
回家
现在的我又孤身在台北桃园国际机场，等待登机飞往洛杉矶。这次回家的感觉真好，和家人的关系似乎又更进一步了。我想也因为如此，使得我刚刚在和家人说再见时心中是满满的不舍。又见到妈咪老泪纵横，我不忍再看……
我还记得在马来西亚国际机场的登机入口处，家人们都好沉默，更避免接触彼此的目光，人人仿佛在努力压抑自己的感伤情绪。我无法再说些什么，因为我也努力让自己的眼泪不会溃堤。妈妈说了句:“一定要让自己快乐知道吗？”然后眼泪再也忍不住，即刻别过脸去。当时的我无法给她安慰，因为我正努力不让自己的情绪泄露太多。我知道一旦让自己有机会流下第一滴泪，接下来将会一发不可收拾。
纵然心里再多的不情愿，我告诉自己是时候离开了。我抱抱弟弟们，抱抱爸爸，叫他要好好照顾身子，他声音中哽咽的回答让我觉得自己好坏，总是让双亲伤心难过，而妈妈还是依然泪眼朦胧……
踏上手扶梯，进入离境入闸处，这次我允许自己回头。我一次又一次地回过头向最亲爱的家人挥手道别，我看着他们依依不舍的眼神追随我的身影，一直到消失为止……好几次眼泪就快决堤了，我拼命忍着。
这次回家，我已经深深爱上了马来西亚，爱上了这个孕育我长大的土地。纵然这个发展中的国家有好多地方还不如我现在身处的美国，但在这里有我最珍贵的家人，最美的回忆，最值得珍惜的朋友，我再也找不到任何让我留在美国的理由。我的心，早已迫不及待等待回家团聚的那一天。到了那一天，我想是雀跃的，是令人期待的，是温馨的。
我还记得在马来西亚国际机场的登机入口处，家人们都好沉默，更避免接触彼此的目光，人人仿佛在努力压抑自己的感伤情绪。我无法再说些什么，因为我也努力让自己的眼泪不会溃堤。妈妈说了句:“一定要让自己快乐知道吗？”然后眼泪再也忍不住，即刻别过脸去。当时的我无法给她安慰，因为我正努力不让自己的情绪泄露太多。我知道一旦让自己有机会流下第一滴泪，接下来将会一发不可收拾。
纵然心里再多的不情愿，我告诉自己是时候离开了。我抱抱弟弟们，抱抱爸爸，叫他要好好照顾身子，他声音中哽咽的回答让我觉得自己好坏，总是让双亲伤心难过，而妈妈还是依然泪眼朦胧……
踏上手扶梯，进入离境入闸处，这次我允许自己回头。我一次又一次地回过头向最亲爱的家人挥手道别，我看着他们依依不舍的眼神追随我的身影，一直到消失为止……好几次眼泪就快决堤了，我拼命忍着。
这次回家，我已经深深爱上了马来西亚，爱上了这个孕育我长大的土地。纵然这个发展中的国家有好多地方还不如我现在身处的美国，但在这里有我最珍贵的家人，最美的回忆，最值得珍惜的朋友，我再也找不到任何让我留在美国的理由。我的心，早已迫不及待等待回家团聚的那一天。到了那一天，我想是雀跃的，是令人期待的，是温馨的。
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Happy Little Mouse Year ^_<
Let's look at the happy part after the terrible and annoying story about the spider. Although this little incident actually brought more warmth into my life, but still, it made me feel not so good when think about it.
The memory of me just arriving California was fresh as if it was just happened yesterday. It was hard. I would say the most precious things that I have in this state are that I got to know so many good and truly kind people. One of them, whom I treasure the most is my "4th brother". I am the eldest in my family and never experience the feeling of having a good big brother. He really treats me as his sister and takes care of me a lot. This new year, I got a lot of "ang pao" because of him. He brought me to his family gathering to collect "ang paos". Haha! Thank you so much, Sei Go!
I do not have any of his pictures but I brought his children to Museum of Nature not long ago and we took a few photos. Here are some of the pics:
I spent my New Year's Eve with my co-workers and boss in the restaurant. We had a big feast: Lobster, Bass fish, Sea cucumber, Crab meat soup etc. The boss bought two bottles of Chivas Regal Whisky (aged 12 years). I felt a little embarrass to admit that I become a "better" drinker after I came to America. Last time when I was in Malaysia, I drank wine but do not really know how to differentiate good taste or bad taste. California has good weather and therefore it is a good place to grow almost anything. The grapes here grow well and the wine produced here are actually have high quality and taste good. Now I know how to appreciate not only cocktail but also shots like Whisky and Cognac (Brandy). Erm.. Not a proud thing to show off, at least definitely not a good idea to let my family knows about it :P
The memory of me just arriving California was fresh as if it was just happened yesterday. It was hard. I would say the most precious things that I have in this state are that I got to know so many good and truly kind people. One of them, whom I treasure the most is my "4th brother". I am the eldest in my family and never experience the feeling of having a good big brother. He really treats me as his sister and takes care of me a lot. This new year, I got a lot of "ang pao" because of him. He brought me to his family gathering to collect "ang paos". Haha! Thank you so much, Sei Go!
I do not have any of his pictures but I brought his children to Museum of Nature not long ago and we took a few photos. Here are some of the pics:
They are my Sei Go three little sweet hearts. They are truely sweet and always open their welcoming arms to me. We were having really good time visiting the museum.
I spent my New Year's Eve with my co-workers and boss in the restaurant. We had a big feast: Lobster, Bass fish, Sea cucumber, Crab meat soup etc. The boss bought two bottles of Chivas Regal Whisky (aged 12 years). I felt a little embarrass to admit that I become a "better" drinker after I came to America. Last time when I was in Malaysia, I drank wine but do not really know how to differentiate good taste or bad taste. California has good weather and therefore it is a good place to grow almost anything. The grapes here grow well and the wine produced here are actually have high quality and taste good. Now I know how to appreciate not only cocktail but also shots like Whisky and Cognac (Brandy). Erm.. Not a proud thing to show off, at least definitely not a good idea to let my family knows about it :P
Anyway, I did not drink much that night because I have to drive and I hate to drink and drive. The other reason was that my co-workers (especially those Mexican) were showing big response when they saw me pour the liquor into my glass. They made me embarass by saying loudly, "Zoe, you drink??!!" Ok, fine! No more.
Then, gambling! Haha! We played 13 cards and the other side were playing a game sort of like "big and small". I did not really know how to play 13 cards but I have so many masters around me. They helped me to arrange the cards and helped to win money as well. Haha! I then went to Sei Go's relatives' house to collect "ang paos" and enjoyed seeing them playing fire crackers at the neighbourhood. It was a pleasant night to me.
I have a delightful new year this year compare with last year. Although I still could not spend my time with my dearest family, but I am glad that I have enlarged my social circle. I feel thankful to meet with these people who are caring and kind. I will keep my effort to live a better life each day. GAMBATE!!!
Damn Spider
It has been more than a month since my last post. Hmm.. I am getting lazier. It's a brand new year, I should become a better person each day but not lazier. It is 12.17am now, so I should say yesterday was not a good day to me.
I slept at around 3am recently. I do not need to work on Saturday so I could sleep until whenever I want. I woke up on 9.30am though. Later on I realized I was waken by a damn spider.
As usual, I switched on my laptop and checked my mail and talking on the phone with Paik Yin. Suddenly, I felt something crawling inside my left ear. (I could feel as if it is still crawling inside my ear while I recall this. Gosh!) I did not really care but then the feeling was more obvious later on. It was trying to crawl in and out. Ahhh, damn creepy! I then recalled that I saw a small spider on my bed before I slept the night before. I did not care about the spider. I did not even try to get it off my bed. Don't ask me why. I still cannot accept this part of life called, "Stupid".
I started to call friends to ask for help. They asked me to jump and I did. I thought I saw a big black insect flew out. (Later only I found out the "big black insect" was my earphone dropped off.) Then I continue to talk to my friend. Suddenly, it crawled again! I started getting nervous. One of my friends suggested to put some cooking oil inside the ear to let it drop out. I did not do that because I was so scared and it was gross. Then he suggested me to substitute by water. The minute I poured the water inside my ear, I could feel the spider became nervous and crawl wildly! It actually moved deeper into my ear rather than crawl out. It hurts, even until now when I recall. It is gross, creepy and scary! I broke down and cried badly. After awhile, I jumped again and the spider finally dropped out and fall onto the floor. I couldn't stop crying even the spider lying half dead on the floor. I looked at the spider and talking to my housemate, Ivan, on the phone. I did not tell him that the spider has came out at that moment because I could not even think.
After a few seconds, I felt something crawling in my ear, still! I could not control myself anymore. First time in my life, I cried like a baby. I could not stop my tears even while talking with Ivan. I felt so sorry to him because I could heard his worries. He did not think twice but decided to come home straight, even though he was having good time with his mom at Huntington Beach, where was about 30minutes away from my house. He tried to calm me down and said he brought his mom back to help me, since his mom is a nurse. I really need to apologize to him because he came all the way back. And the most important thing is, his mom is going back to Brazil and they were treasuring the time together before she fly home. And I screwed up their good time.
I sat on the floor at the kitchen and could not stop my tears from falling. I could not remember how long I have waited. About 5 minutes before Ivan and his mom arrived, my other housemate came back. He was shock to see me sat there and cried. He tried to calm me down and "dragged" me to clinic (because I insisted to wait for Ivan's mom to help me). Finally they were home!
His mom really like an angel. She cannot speak English. She smiled at me, touched my head and asked me not to cry. Three of them then tried whatever way to make me feel better. I was being treated like a princess. I am always lucky to have so many people treated me so good. His mom actually knew that there should be no more spider or any other insects inside my ear but still, she tried to put a few drops of warm water inside my ear for few times. She was trying to clean my ear, to heal the pain and to make sure there is no creature in there.
She then cooked for all of us. At that moment, I felt like I am home. She might never have the chance to read this blog, but I really would like to express my gratitude to her. She would never know how thankful I feel to her.
I went to work at 5pm. There was a new waiter came to work today and he asked me to give him a ride and I did. It should be a happy thing to do since helping people always good. However I felt so "pek cek" after got him home. It was because I did not ask in detail how far was his house and the most important thing is, I got lost! I got lost because he gave me the wrong direction. I was too stupid nowadays as in trusting people for direction. I got to have faith in myself but not simply trust other people for direction since they always gave me the wrong information. I have been trusting people for direction and got lost for a few times recently. If I follow my own instict and experience, I could have done much better. Another "not so smart" part of my life.
Well, I hope it was all over. Today will be a good day -- I hope, I wish and I pray.
I slept at around 3am recently. I do not need to work on Saturday so I could sleep until whenever I want. I woke up on 9.30am though. Later on I realized I was waken by a damn spider.
As usual, I switched on my laptop and checked my mail and talking on the phone with Paik Yin. Suddenly, I felt something crawling inside my left ear. (I could feel as if it is still crawling inside my ear while I recall this. Gosh!) I did not really care but then the feeling was more obvious later on. It was trying to crawl in and out. Ahhh, damn creepy! I then recalled that I saw a small spider on my bed before I slept the night before. I did not care about the spider. I did not even try to get it off my bed. Don't ask me why. I still cannot accept this part of life called, "Stupid".
I started to call friends to ask for help. They asked me to jump and I did. I thought I saw a big black insect flew out. (Later only I found out the "big black insect" was my earphone dropped off.) Then I continue to talk to my friend. Suddenly, it crawled again! I started getting nervous. One of my friends suggested to put some cooking oil inside the ear to let it drop out. I did not do that because I was so scared and it was gross. Then he suggested me to substitute by water. The minute I poured the water inside my ear, I could feel the spider became nervous and crawl wildly! It actually moved deeper into my ear rather than crawl out. It hurts, even until now when I recall. It is gross, creepy and scary! I broke down and cried badly. After awhile, I jumped again and the spider finally dropped out and fall onto the floor. I couldn't stop crying even the spider lying half dead on the floor. I looked at the spider and talking to my housemate, Ivan, on the phone. I did not tell him that the spider has came out at that moment because I could not even think.
After a few seconds, I felt something crawling in my ear, still! I could not control myself anymore. First time in my life, I cried like a baby. I could not stop my tears even while talking with Ivan. I felt so sorry to him because I could heard his worries. He did not think twice but decided to come home straight, even though he was having good time with his mom at Huntington Beach, where was about 30minutes away from my house. He tried to calm me down and said he brought his mom back to help me, since his mom is a nurse. I really need to apologize to him because he came all the way back. And the most important thing is, his mom is going back to Brazil and they were treasuring the time together before she fly home. And I screwed up their good time.
I sat on the floor at the kitchen and could not stop my tears from falling. I could not remember how long I have waited. About 5 minutes before Ivan and his mom arrived, my other housemate came back. He was shock to see me sat there and cried. He tried to calm me down and "dragged" me to clinic (because I insisted to wait for Ivan's mom to help me). Finally they were home!
His mom really like an angel. She cannot speak English. She smiled at me, touched my head and asked me not to cry. Three of them then tried whatever way to make me feel better. I was being treated like a princess. I am always lucky to have so many people treated me so good. His mom actually knew that there should be no more spider or any other insects inside my ear but still, she tried to put a few drops of warm water inside my ear for few times. She was trying to clean my ear, to heal the pain and to make sure there is no creature in there.
She then cooked for all of us. At that moment, I felt like I am home. She might never have the chance to read this blog, but I really would like to express my gratitude to her. She would never know how thankful I feel to her.
I went to work at 5pm. There was a new waiter came to work today and he asked me to give him a ride and I did. It should be a happy thing to do since helping people always good. However I felt so "pek cek" after got him home. It was because I did not ask in detail how far was his house and the most important thing is, I got lost! I got lost because he gave me the wrong direction. I was too stupid nowadays as in trusting people for direction. I got to have faith in myself but not simply trust other people for direction since they always gave me the wrong information. I have been trusting people for direction and got lost for a few times recently. If I follow my own instict and experience, I could have done much better. Another "not so smart" part of my life.
Well, I hope it was all over. Today will be a good day -- I hope, I wish and I pray.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
一个人的世界
我常在挣扎着该用什么语言来写，因为我忽然之间发现，我的中文正在以惊人的速度退步中，而我的英文又不见得进步。面对自己的“退化”，真的好吓人哦！想了想，中文好了。
现在的我坐在台北的桃园机场，等待两小时后飞往洛杉矶的班机。我其实真的很享受一个人飞的旅程，那种一个人的感觉，一个人的行李，一个人的等待，一个人的思考，彻彻底底地、完完全全的一个人，Hmm……或许有点让人难以理解，但是对我来说真的是个享受。漫长的等待让我学会了享受等待，好像这时候的思绪特别清晰。虽然身在文明的国际机场，但是却有种与世隔绝的心情，隔离了和外界的联络，隔绝了和任何人的交际，完全就是自己悠闲的时间，做着自己平时总是给自己找借口说没有时间做的事。所以四个小时的等待时间在我眼里已不算什么，反而是个BONUS！让自己的思绪沉淀的BONUS。
最近的我深深的爱上了戴佩妮的“一个人的行李”，歌词里的意境，我可以深深的体会。
心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
反正天若真的塌下来
我自己扛
天气好or天气坏
有什么好紧张
反正下一秒钟的我
开始 开始流浪
我要一个人去东京铁塔看夜景
我要一个人去威尼斯看电影
我要一个人去阳明山上看海芋 拍偶像剧
我要一个人去纽约纯粹看雪景
我要一个人去巴黎喝咖啡写信
我要一个人的旅行
一个人 透透气
向右转or向左拐
有什么不一样
反正每一条未知的路
都有未来
我和谁在谈恋爱
有什么大惊小怪
反正下一秒钟的我
早已 早已离开
我要一个人在希腊梦见苏格拉底
我要一个人的通宵看完鲁迅的背影
我要一个人呆呆的在浴缸里 思考阮玲玉 阮玲玉
我要一个人的北京探望孟姜女
我要一个人的书局和志摩谈情
我要一个人的旅行 一个人彻底～
心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
一个人的旅行 一个人的行李
一个人的旅行 一个人的好奇
一个人的旅行 一个人没有你
两个星期的时间，真的太仓促了，记忆中仿佛只是前几天的事而已。还记得在同样的台北桃园机场等待转机，只是当时的目的地是我的家园。好不容易终于由遥远的美国抵达心系的家园，当飞机窜出重重云层，我看见马来西亚的大地的那一刹那，嘴角掩不住的笑容，我想是灿烂的。我脚步轻快的像只雀儿步出飞机，蹦蹦跳跳走到行李提取处等待我的行李，嘴角还是深深地牵着笑容。当我终于穿过重重关卡来到抵达处的大堂时，看见好多人拿着牌子伸长颈子等待。我看不见熟悉的身影，便到附近的商店，用十令吉换了些硬币打电话。电话通了，爸爸接了电话说他们已经到了，不过没看见我。我匆匆挂了电话，脚步连跑带飞地奔回抵步大堂。远远就看见爸爸身穿黄色的衣服回头告诉妈妈看见了我，下一刻，我就看见小弟以一百米的速度向我跑来，我们紧紧抱住了……然后轮流抱抱爸爸、妈妈和弟弟。我看见白发苍苍的老爸眼眶都红了，妈妈更是喜极而泣。那一刻的喜悦，直到此时此刻我还能深深感受到。而今天我又让他们的眼眶红了，只是不像上一次的喜悦，而是不舍。对不起了我最爱的爸爸妈妈，总是制造让你们流泪的场面。
然后是一次又一次让人感动的洗尘聚会。我亲爱的朋友们，你们的热情让我感动。遗憾的是我没有更多的时间和大家多多相聚，不过来日方长，总有再会面的时候。至于一些没能相见的朋友，我们相约在不久的未来吧。
我是幸运的，一直都是。宽阔的天空、不一样的生活体验、环绕着我最真挚并无价的亲情与友情、暂时适当性缺席的爱情……我想，我是幸福的。
今天有人告诉我，我的眼里只看见一棵我自以为是的擎天古木，就想可以是檀香好木，殊不知前头却有一大片森林，可以逐棵逐棵挑选。我记住了。接下来我有什么打算？嗯，我希望待会儿在机上可以好好睡觉，然后到了洛杉矶有力气提重重的行李。回家后可以继续再睡！哈哈！
很多时候，人生其实就是这么回事儿。很多人食不知味，夜不能寝。所以我说，吃得下，睡得着，就是幸福。呵呵！
现在的我坐在台北的桃园机场，等待两小时后飞往洛杉矶的班机。我其实真的很享受一个人飞的旅程，那种一个人的感觉，一个人的行李，一个人的等待，一个人的思考，彻彻底底地、完完全全的一个人，Hmm……或许有点让人难以理解，但是对我来说真的是个享受。漫长的等待让我学会了享受等待，好像这时候的思绪特别清晰。虽然身在文明的国际机场，但是却有种与世隔绝的心情，隔离了和外界的联络，隔绝了和任何人的交际，完全就是自己悠闲的时间，做着自己平时总是给自己找借口说没有时间做的事。所以四个小时的等待时间在我眼里已不算什么，反而是个BONUS！让自己的思绪沉淀的BONUS。
最近的我深深的爱上了戴佩妮的“一个人的行李”，歌词里的意境，我可以深深的体会。
心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
反正天若真的塌下来
我自己扛
天气好or天气坏
有什么好紧张
反正下一秒钟的我
开始 开始流浪
我要一个人去东京铁塔看夜景
我要一个人去威尼斯看电影
我要一个人去阳明山上看海芋 拍偶像剧
我要一个人去纽约纯粹看雪景
我要一个人去巴黎喝咖啡写信
我要一个人的旅行
一个人 透透气
向右转or向左拐
有什么不一样
反正每一条未知的路
都有未来
我和谁在谈恋爱
有什么大惊小怪
反正下一秒钟的我
早已 早已离开
我要一个人在希腊梦见苏格拉底
我要一个人的通宵看完鲁迅的背影
我要一个人呆呆的在浴缸里 思考阮玲玉 阮玲玉
我要一个人的北京探望孟姜女
我要一个人的书局和志摩谈情
我要一个人的旅行 一个人彻底～
心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
一个人的旅行 一个人的行李
一个人的旅行 一个人的好奇
一个人的旅行 一个人没有你
两个星期的时间，真的太仓促了，记忆中仿佛只是前几天的事而已。还记得在同样的台北桃园机场等待转机，只是当时的目的地是我的家园。好不容易终于由遥远的美国抵达心系的家园，当飞机窜出重重云层，我看见马来西亚的大地的那一刹那，嘴角掩不住的笑容，我想是灿烂的。我脚步轻快的像只雀儿步出飞机，蹦蹦跳跳走到行李提取处等待我的行李，嘴角还是深深地牵着笑容。当我终于穿过重重关卡来到抵达处的大堂时，看见好多人拿着牌子伸长颈子等待。我看不见熟悉的身影，便到附近的商店，用十令吉换了些硬币打电话。电话通了，爸爸接了电话说他们已经到了，不过没看见我。我匆匆挂了电话，脚步连跑带飞地奔回抵步大堂。远远就看见爸爸身穿黄色的衣服回头告诉妈妈看见了我，下一刻，我就看见小弟以一百米的速度向我跑来，我们紧紧抱住了……然后轮流抱抱爸爸、妈妈和弟弟。我看见白发苍苍的老爸眼眶都红了，妈妈更是喜极而泣。那一刻的喜悦，直到此时此刻我还能深深感受到。而今天我又让他们的眼眶红了，只是不像上一次的喜悦，而是不舍。对不起了我最爱的爸爸妈妈，总是制造让你们流泪的场面。
然后是一次又一次让人感动的洗尘聚会。我亲爱的朋友们，你们的热情让我感动。遗憾的是我没有更多的时间和大家多多相聚，不过来日方长，总有再会面的时候。至于一些没能相见的朋友，我们相约在不久的未来吧。
我是幸运的，一直都是。宽阔的天空、不一样的生活体验、环绕着我最真挚并无价的亲情与友情、暂时适当性缺席的爱情……我想，我是幸福的。
今天有人告诉我，我的眼里只看见一棵我自以为是的擎天古木，就想可以是檀香好木，殊不知前头却有一大片森林，可以逐棵逐棵挑选。我记住了。接下来我有什么打算？嗯，我希望待会儿在机上可以好好睡觉，然后到了洛杉矶有力气提重重的行李。回家后可以继续再睡！哈哈！
很多时候，人生其实就是这么回事儿。很多人食不知味，夜不能寝。所以我说，吃得下，睡得着，就是幸福。呵呵！
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